(And How to Stop Falling For It) Once upon a time, I thought I was sharp. Self-aware. Immune to manipulation. Spoiler: I wasn’t. I was being played like a piano in a haunted house. The scariest part? I didn’t even know it. That’s the thing. When you’re in it, you don’t know how to tell …
Category Archives: Life
Revengeporn: When Your Trauma Gets Views
Let’s talk about revengeporn. Not in the sterile, legal way your HR manual might describe it. In the real, horrifying, I-just-saw-my-own-naked-body-in-a-group-chat kind of way. Revenge porn isn’t about sex. It’s about control, humiliation, and power. It’s a weapon. A very specific, very targeted weapon designed to strip you of privacy, dignity, and any last shred …
The Love Bomb Is a Lie: What It Feels Like to Be Groomed by a Narcissist
Love Bombing: What It Really Feels Like to Be Groomed by a Narcissist Love bombing isn’t romantic. It’s not fate, it’s not passion, and it sure as hell isn’t love. It’s marketing. Emotional clickbait. Grooming disguised as your soulmate. And by the time you realise what’s happening, you’re already trapped in the trailer of a …
Fluidity Sexuality and the Next 25 Years of Love and Lust
Let’s not pretend we’ve figured out sexuality just because someone made a new flag. The reality? Fluidity sexuality isn’t a buzzword or a YouTube identity crisis. It’s the very real shift happening right under our smug, label-obsessed noses. And over the next twenty five years, it’s about to get weird. In a good way. If …
Surviving BPD and NPD: ADHD, Addiction, and Everything in Between
Surviving BPD and NPD: ADHD, Addiction, and Everything in Between This isn’t a sob story. It’s not some humblebrag about resilience. This is a documentation of psychological warfare. It’s about surviving someone with BPD and NPD. It’s about what happens when untreated Borderline Personality Disorder meets narcissistic personality traits, hard drugs, zero accountability, ADHD, Autism, …
Good Luck Getting Rid of Me: Surviving a Malignant Narcissist and a Real-Life Psychopath
This isn’t fiction. This is what actually happened. And it’s still happening. I wish the story I’m about to tell you was fiction, like most of the others I’ve written. But it’s not. Like most terrifying experiences we survive, we wish they’d never happened. But that’s not how life works, unfortunately. I’m not the only …
The Return of Fox Emerson: Chasing the Creative Beast Again (And the Writing Process)
Well… hello. It’s been a while, hasn’t it? And if I’m being honest, I’ve missed this. The writing, that is. The process. The way it feels to spill all this nonsense into words until something resembling a story emerges. It’s like going back to the gym after a long break. Painful, but oh so satisfying. …
Changing Worlds
I did think that Covid would change our lives quite a bit, but the Chinese people being in lockdown 3 years on and finally uprising was not on my 2022 bingo card. Our lives in London have moved forward as though nothing ever happened. Well, not quite as care-free as I suggest. I’m at London …
The Hole in the Door
“Just because we don’t like our history, doesn’t mean we can erase it.”
This blog is about The Hole in the Door, a book about Glory Holes.
Dis Ease of a World at Conflict
Two black girls were stabbed in a park in London, in June 2020, and two Policemen took selfies with the bodies. What happened to the cops, and the imperceptible effort to find the killer, sparked anger in the community. They got out on bail but were suspended from their roles. This alone is not what …
Covid Over in 6 Weeks or Several Decades
I’m too stupid to be ruler of any land, because I have these ridiculous ideas that just won’t get out of my head. They involve either having covid over in 6 weeks or several decades. Imagine if we had an international, independent organisation that could coordinate a pandemic response. We could call them something like, …
The Spiral
The Spiral Why Am I So Invisible? You’re so handsome. Those lightly colored cheeks, and that slightly narrow nose and those full lips that make me think of pasta sauce. Your green eyes as the light coming through the train windows bounces off them, even as you focus on your phone. I notice others admire …
10 Things That Would Top off 2020 Like Arsenic Icing
10 Things That Would Top off 2020 Like Arsenic Icing. Like E.T.’s call finally gets answered.
Beta Readers
Beta readers are the unsung heroes of our times. No author should publish a book without them.
To Vaccinate or not to Vaccinate?
That is the question I’m like a pendulum, going back and forth, considering my options. I’ve never been an ‘anti-vaxxer’ though as a curious human, I’ve questioned the plight, and there’s valid fears there (sometimes), though not always. But here we are, in 2021, and we’re being forced into a situation in which the Covid …
Who is Adam Norty?
Adam Norty is…well…he’s quite norty. In a recent post, I told you that I had almost cheated on you, and that I’d almost decided to publish The Hole in the Door under that pen name. I still might, I haven’t fully decided yet. Maybe you can influence my decision. Adam or Fox for a book …
The Truth is a Lie
Ask yourself this; who can you trust right now? Who in your life do you know without a shadow of a doubt, is telling you the truth? Would you know if the truth is a lie? The unfortunate situation that most countries have created for themselves is that the people within them no longer believe …
Covidiots
What is a Covidiot? An Epidemiologist and a Virologist are sitting at their broken computers one day. Epidemiologist, “I think the network cable broke.” Virologist, “No, it was the graphics card overloading. I know because we ran the graphics intensive software right before they both crashed.” IT guy comes along and ignores their commentary as …
My Coronavirus Diary
The email I received on Sunday night from the NHS confirmed what I already knew; I have coronavirus. Unlike the millions who came before me, I don’t have the same symptoms. Is the virus getting weaker? So far, for my husband and I, it’s a lot weaker. But then I suspect we caught a small …
An Hour of Your Time
Two young men appeared at my door; both well-dressed in a casual style and both carrying old-fashioned brief-cases. While neither of them flashed sun-blinding pearly whites, they looked friendly and curious. One had cropped short- dark, hair and the other was a traditional blonde with hair only slightly shorter. The lack of polish in their shoes and wrinkles in their clothes made it clear they weren’t military nor corporate. In fact, both their shirts and trousers were in various forms of wrinkled. I assumed scholars, students or scientists.
Finally the Vaccine
Finally the vaccine has arrived because we are the virus.
Living in Domes
It’s time for change I’m going to tell you a secret. During the three or so years I was writing the newly released The Peace Ambassador, I began to realise that some things didn’t add up. I started thinking about some of the concepts in the book. This led to the viability of living in …
The Lie of an Era
As a child, I was impressed by the height of the pyramids and the mind-bending thoughts on the man hours required for such a construction. In 2020, I’m equally astounded at the even more impressive civilization of lies we’ve built that tower over these great pyramids. The reality is that if you can’t lie, you’ll …
Fuck I Hate Linda
Ellie disliked Linda immensely. Apparently, over Christmas dinner, Ellie made a big deal of her intolerance for a number of staple foods. “This stupid woman never once thought to make sure that her host, ie… me, would know her particular intolerances. Needless to stay, the stupid bitch made awkward comments and ruined my Christmas.” Paul …
Dystopian Novels
Dystopian books by Fox Emerson, not just a plug on the new book The Peace Ambassador, but also a homage to the genre of dystopia
Are All Reviews Fake?
Reviews are big business and fake ones are easily bought. Watch out, that fry pan may not be genuinely ‘amazing’.
An Hour of Your Time Pt 3
Continued from Pt 2… “This is yours, Ollie,” she said, then used her pass to unlock the door on the side panel. An audible click was heard, followed by a whoosh as the doors swiftly opened. I followed her slight figure into the room and was taken aback by the comfortable surroundings and the size …
An Hour of your Time pt 2
Continued from part one… I closed and locked the door and carefully navigated down the 3 worn – fading, pink concrete steps and onto a path that had more cracks in it than my face did, with at least 3 generations of weeds trying to completely cover the narrow path. The path and I had …
Ricki oh Ricky
Ricky – not short for anything, and simply named so because his dad liked it and had apparently decided that’s what he’d call their only son. Ricky was an alleged disappointment from the very beginning. He wasn’t able to play catch – of any type, he seemed to have two left feet when it came …
To Judge or not to Judge
That is the Answer Imagine that life is a sliding scale of feminine to masculine and that there is no right or wrong. You don’t have to be any one thing and you can choose where you fit; probably somewhere in between. Extremely feminine? Cool. Kind of masculine? Ok. Don’t want to state it? No …
The Cigar Shaped Object
A musing on the origins of Oumuamua As the sun grew brighter, and the days longer, I noted the temperament of those around me darken. My Father – a self-confessed recluse who watched the world through suspicious eyes – almost disappeared completely into his armchair. By sharp contrast, my Mother was chirpier than usual; baking …
Shit Week
Dear this week, good riddance. And I mean it from the bottom of my heart when I say, fuck you. Oh, and Three Uk Mobile, you can go to hell. There’s a reason why you’re voted the worst mobile network in the UK. It’s because you’re shit. Thank God I’m with GiffGaff now. Last Thursday, …
The Star
Thousands of voices cheered; roared, clapped and stamped their feet to be heard; to show their admiration and appreciation for her enduring talent, and to encourage her to continue. Nobody wanted her to stop – not when she was in full-swing, singing hit after hit after hit after hit. She was The Cleo – the …
Look at me, I’m Ridiculously Tragic
This week, I’ve thought about time travel and inter-dimensional space and time, only because I’ve wanted to put my hand through it, reach into the past, and fucking slap the goddamn shit out of my stupid-ass face. But we can’t go back in time can we? And when we have regrets, we can’t erase our …
Can Bromance be Mistaken for Romance?
He’s hot, right? You really like him and you think he likes you in the same way. I mean, after all, he’s obviously showing you all the signs you want to see and are happy to see. It confirms your suspicion that he’s as into you as you are into him. But can bromance be …
When Harry Married Henry
Henry couldn’t remember not hating his name. He’d always felt that it belonged in black and white movies. By the time he’d turned 20, he was better known as Hank. Hank thought Sydney Harbor’s Boys’ School was an ok school, with the only real good thing that came out of that was having spent 3 …
Shame
Shame “I’m not ashamed of who I am, what I stand for or what I do.” Shame Far too many young men and women and those who fit somewhere in between, experience shame because of social conditioning. It’s too easy to make people feel bad. There’s a horrid video and post about a Syrian refugee …
Scaredy Cat
Every time I try and convince one of my friends that I’m not a Scaredy Cat, they either laugh, smile awkwardly or look at me as though I’m something that they stepped in. Exhibit A – I’ve been plagued by Night Terrors since I was a kid, but still tell myself I’m all grown up; …
Send Me an Angel
Send Me an Angel The sound beyond the door was unmistakably that of footsteps as I prayed for God to send me an angel. They drew closer, causing Luca to tighten his grip on the quilt and pull it over half of his face. Though the filtered moonlight was dim, he could see that his …
What Does Pride Mean?
What Does Pride Mean? What does pride mean? Let’s be honest, we all know that Pride is associated with the LGBTQIAFRSMTUVZ community and that somewhere in the feathery Village People days, they had a point to make and that point was that every minority group who were ostracised, because of their sexual preferences or identity, …
Is Aging a Disease?
Is Aging a Disease? Homosexuality was considered a disease as recently as in 1974, yet as of 2018, homosexuals (doesn’t that oversized word conjure up images of beefy, hairy men in chaps?) can marry in most culturally advanced countries around the world. We’ve come a long way in terms of attitudes towards minority groups; so …
Suing God, I Am Suing You
Dear God, I Am Suing You I am taking Legal and Moral action against you. I hereby lodge criminal proceedings against you, for the following list of crimes: Criminal Negligence causing bodily harm Fraud and Lying Conspiring to create a world of chaos There are others, but this will suffice for now. Criminal Negligence causing …
What Does Abundance Mean
What Does Abundance Mean? I’m not about to get all spiritual on your ass with this ‘What Does Abundance Mean’ bs but…I’ve had some interesting and not so fun moments the past few weeks. These events have forced me to revisit why things happen and why we do the things we do. I’m no expert, …
Why You Shouldn’t Write a Book
Why You Shouldn’t Write a Book Why you shouldn’t write a book is because it won’t sell. Not unless you’re already really famous and one of the Kardashians. In fact, if you’re related to one of them then you’ll sell millions without even needing to publish the book. Put it on presale and bang – …
Turn That Frown Upside Down
Turn That Frown Upside Down The truth, the whole truth and nothing but the whole truth about happiness. All you need to do is turn that frown upside down. I’ve got a secret. My smile is fake. It’s not real. More often than not, it’s borrowed. I may even have bought it, or perhaps I …
Stay Afloat, Don’t Drown, Be Positive and Be Happy
Stay Afloat, Don’t Drown, Be Positive and Be Happy Laugh and the world laughs with you, weep and you weep alone – from Ella Wheeler’s poem from 1883 titled, “Solitude”. A lesson in how to be happy. Stay Afloat 2018 continues to drown us with technological advancements which we must learn, new methods that we …
Death’s Been Knocking on the Door
Death’s Been Knocking on the Door The family chatted loudly and with great passion and animation as the car idled on the sidewalk, forcing Sunday strollers to detour around it, while I – with all of the wisdom of a six year-old – saw the open door as an invitation and jumped onto the driver’s …
Humans are Alien Babies from Long, Long Ago
In Circle in the Sand – I’ve hypothesised that humans lived on Mars, before moving to Earth. I also hint that humans may have evolved even before Mars from somewhere else, perhaps even in another solar system. Did we come from Mars? Let’s look at the evidence for and against. Yes, we’re talking about either …
What happens to us when we Die?
What happens to us when we Die? I refuse to believe that there’s an empty void waiting for us at the end of our lives. What happens to us when we die? Remember when we were babies and we looked at our parents as though they were God-like beings who had all the answers? When …
The Changing Landscape
The Changing Landscape Times, they are a-changing. Women are wearing pant-suits and cutting their hair short, while men grow ponytails (top-knots) and wear dresses, and gay men and women are legally marrying. This marks the beginning of a new era of acceptance in the ever-growing and changing landscape. We’re evolving ladies and gentlemen. Don’t like …
The Meaning of Time and Other Cyclical Nonsense
The Meaning of Time and Other Cyclical Nonsense A Pointless Short Story. Or is it? “Let’s do this,” he asked her, it was a question – but sounded like it wasn’t. “You know what’s going to happen this time? Don’t…” the look of sadness was unmistakable. “Hey…shhhh” he leaned in closer, they could not have …
An Amazon Drone is Gonna Start Dropping From the Sky!
An Amazon Drone is Gonna Start Dropping From the Sky! Or some fucking redneck’s gonna shoot ’em If I told you that an Amazon drone is about to deliver directly to your apartment in London within an hour of you clicking send, you’d think I was taking the proverbial piss. But it’s not something that …
The Alien Agenda is to Shove Hot Pokers up your Bum
The Alien Agenda Somewhere on Uranus, a group of egg-headed, mustard-coloured, yellow aliens with eyes remarkably similar to a Pokemon’s are scheming the demise of the human race. The biggest obstacle to the alien agenda is our Goddamn fighting spirit – oh, we’re a pesky race, reknowned through the galaxy for being stubborn, stoic and …
Night Terrors
Night Terrors Another victim scrambles for the light switch At some point during my teen years, I discovered that I would never sleep in a dark room due to continual night terrors that had plagued me since birth. My father bought me an orange night-light, which proceeded to fill my room with an eerie orange …
What to do if your phone is stolen
What to do if your phone is stolen Don’t panic, they don’t want your data I wish I’d read useful ‘what to do if your phone is stolen’ advice over two weeks ago. I’d left my friend after a great dinner in Kings Cross – London, in which I’d had two pints of beer and …
Where Do We Go When We Die?
Where Do We Go When We Die? The catholics believe that we go to heaven and the bad people go to hell and that’s what I was taught as a child by strict, Roman Catholic parents. I have a distinct memory of asking my Father, where do we go when we die? His response? Fuck …
Circles in the Sand
Circles in the Sand I’ve been thinking about death a lot lately, because as I write this, Monique has rapidly declined in health. At this point in time, while in a hospice in North London, we’re hoping for a miracle. This brings me to the book I’m writing, called Circles in the Sand and why …
The Meaningful Ribbon
The Meaningful Ribbon We sail through our lives, often without a care. Things flow smoothly – sure, there are ups and downs, but they are just bumps and hurdles that we quickly overcome, but generally, we live our lives with ease. Until something comes along that requires you to get The Meaningful Ribbon. If you …
We All Get The Holiday Blues
Holiday Blues The minute you arrive at home – after a trip away, the holiday blues set in. I’ve just returned from a two week trip to Italy, where I caught up with family and friends in Rome, Caserta and Naples. I’m still smiling and laughing at the jokes that were told, licking my lips …
How Much Sex Is Too Much Sex?
How Much Sex Is Too Much Guilty. I’m dirty-minded, perverted, deviant. Yet still, I wonder how much sex is too much? I’ve written sex scenes that are pretty…um, explicit. Because it fits into the story line and it is a natural progression between the two characters or simply because it just felt like they needed …
Why its Ok Being Weird and Other Terrible Advice
Why its Ok Being Weird and Other Terrible Advice Should I Conform to the Sheeple? I’m going to tell you a little secret. STOP BEING BORING and trying to be like everyone else. It’s not going to get you anywhere nor is it going to make you happy. The secret unreachable magic of life is …
Going Full Circle
Going Full Circle A popular theory amongst certain scientists is that time is not linear, it is cyclical. Try and get your head around this: the future has already happened and the past is yet to happen. If that is true, no wonder we might often feel like we are going full circle. Going full …
Chasing Butterflies
Chasing Butterflies Like a curious child full of hope and desire, I’m chasing butterflies. I’ve thought about it so much that I feel that I’ve spent my entire life obsessing over it. I’ve had it, used it, lived within it and gone past it many, many times and yet, here I am today still in …
What is a Digital Nomad
What is a Digital Nomad And how to find them… What is a digital nomad? It’s people like me who work online and digitally and quite often don’t have offices. That doesn’t mean we’re homeless – far from it – it means we’re officeless. Nor does it mean we’re jobless. Many of us earn a …
We Seem to be Angry all the Time
We Seem to be Angry all the Time Road rage The information superhighway gets me what I want and fast. But what frustrates the hell out of me is how real life highways are incredibly slow in comparison. We sit behind that very slow car and wait patiently while they try and work out whether …
Why WE Should Be Ashamed of Ourselves
Why WE Should Be Ashamed of Ourselves Because we created a world filled with terror. We created ISIS. When the US led NATO went in and destabilized the Middle East, we left millions of people without homes. Now we’re arguing about who should take those refugees in…that’s why we should be ashamed of ourselves. We …
Is Cannabis Oil a Cancer Cure or Hype?
Is Cannabis Oil a Cancer Cure or Hype? When a loved one’s life hangs in the balance, we want any cancer cure Because you, or someone you know has cancer or you’ve simply heard the marijuana hype and now you’re wondering if there’s a cancer cure in cannabis oil. I know, I am one of …
Think Like a Millennial or Risk Being in the Dark
Think Like a Millennial Because things are done faster, smarter…or not done at all. What is a Millennial generation anyway? Why is it so important for so many people to understand the importance to think like a Millennial? Let’s race through the last 70 something years and have a quick recap so that we’re on …
Hollywood Romance Books
Hollywood Romance Books I did it. I wrote and published my first Hollywood Romance Novel. Phew. Imagine if you were thrown into the spotlight at just 16. How would you cope? What would change in your world? How do you think your relationships with family and friends would adjust to such a different existence? Most …
Writing about Sex Rape and Drugs
Writing about Sex Rape and Drugs Imagine that YOU are my next book I’m a perverted, disgusting, filthy-minded man who writes about topics which nearly always feature sex rape and drugs. But not just normal, missionary-style sex, oh no…I’m getting into rough sex, sex with lies that trick you into having drugs against your will. …
Being Original When Being Genuine is Better
Being Original Can’t be original? Be genuine instead. Being original is almost…dare I say it, impossible. It’s all been done before. The art of originality has been lost, convoluted, diluted, shaken and stirred – then thrown out or simply forgotten. The more we try to be original, the more we discover it’s not only been …
Must Read and Best Books for 2017
Best Books Where are those hidden gems? My best books. Nothing beats curling up with a hot drink (or a strong vino) in your favorite reading spot, reading the best books. A book will take you from that armchair anywhere you want to go. Fantasy It’s not just J.K. Rowling who magically whisked us away …
Pop Singers
Pop Singers Glitz, Glamor and Candy for your Ears Teenagers are sexually growing beings who obsess over something that gives them escapism. Some people love to read, others get lost in a movie or a TV series, while others, while away the time obsessing over their favorite artists – including Pop Singers. Fans of science …
Is Bromance Gay?
Is Bromance Gay? No smart person could question… is bromance gay? Especially if they understood what Bromance is. A bromance is a close relationship between two guys that isn’t sexual in nature and usually very intense. In today’s far-too-complicated world of stereotypes and seemingly-necessary labels it seems that we must categorise everyone. If two guys are remarkably …
Remaining Positive in Difficult Times
Remaining Positive in Difficult Times And avoiding the shitstorm that life often throws at us Lesson number 1, don’t talk politics with others, even friends and family. We all have an opinion and are entitled to it, even when you hear that opinion and your fists clench, your eyes water and even Superman couldn’t hold …
Reality is a Distortion Created by Hollywood
Reality is a Distortion Created by Hollywood But is that a good thing or a bad thing? Aliens with acid for blood managed to wipe out an entire ship, while Darth Vader went over to the dark side. The Illuminati became an internet conspiracy favorite for being the elites who secretly control the world and …
The Magician
The Magician Trump’s Sleight of Hand The world is in awe of the greatest magician history has ever seen. Donald Trump’s sleight of hand is unbeatable. He is, without question, the magician of the century with an audience of billions. Without question, 2017 thus far has proven that the orange man is by far the …
Lucy
Lucy An Inspiring Story About Discovering Yourself I’m almost finished my book titled Lucy and I’m just a little excited about the story. Lucy is an overnight sensation and a singer with an angelic voice that captivates the hearts of millions. In a small town – somewhere in New York State – Lucy is a …
Should Parenting Require a License?
Should Parenting Require a License? Child abuse, drug abuse – who decides whether parenting require a license? It’s none of your business whether or not your neighbor’s are bad parents. Or is it? What if you were later to discover that those people sexually abused their children? Should parenting require a license? Would it be …
Accidentally Entering Cougar Town – Turn Back Now!
Meanwhile in Cougar Town Accidentally Cougar Town Liesel had a hangover, but still she made it to work, even if the bags under her eyes were big enough for a grocery shop and the bottom of her mouth tasted only marginally like the bottom of a birdcage. Either way, she had no idea that this …
How to Broach a Difficult Subject and Risk Losing Someone
How to Broach a Difficult Subject Are You Being a Friend or a Foe? It’s incredibly difficult isn’t it? Telling someone something that they probably don’t want to hear. But if you don’t tell them, who will? There’s never a right way on how to broach a difficult subject with someone you care about. Whether …
Is Trump Going to Cause WW3?
Is Trump Going to Cause WW3? The answer is scary As I’ve been writing The Peace Ambassador, I researched top reasons why we’d experience an apocalypse. In my first apocalyptic book – Mr 303, I chose a virus, because it seemed the most likely cause. Had I known then that Donald Trump was going to …
Visit Your Home Town
Visit Your Home Town When Memories Are Better Than The Visit We grow as people; some of us more than others. When you leave a place and move on, you expect to return to some changes, though in your mind, those faces and those places should remain exactly the same. When you’ve been away for …