Love Bombing: What It Really Feels Like to Be Groomed by a Narcissist Love bombing isn’t romantic. It’s not fate, it’s not passion, and it sure as hell isn’t love. It’s marketing. Emotional clickbait. Grooming disguised as your soulmate. And by the time you realise what’s happening, you’re already trapped in the trailer of a …
Author Archives: Fox Emerson

Surviving BPD and NPD: ADHD, Addiction, and Everything in Between
Surviving BPD and NPD: ADHD, Addiction, and Everything in Between This isn’t a sob story. It’s not some humblebrag about resilience. This is a documentation of psychological warfare. It’s about surviving someone with BPD and NPD. It’s about what happens when untreated Borderline Personality Disorder meets narcissistic personality traits, hard drugs, zero accountability, ADHD, Autism, …

Good Luck Getting Rid of Me: Surviving a Malignant Narcissist and a Real-Life Psychopath
This isn’t fiction. This is what actually happened. And it’s still happening. I wish the story I’m about to tell you was fiction, like most of the others I’ve written. But it’s not. Like most terrifying experiences we survive, we wish they’d never happened. But that’s not how life works, unfortunately. I’m not the only …

Changing Worlds
I did think that Covid would change our lives quite a bit, but the Chinese people being in lockdown 3 years on and finally uprising was not on my 2022 bingo card. Our lives in London have moved forward as though nothing ever happened. Well, not quite as care-free as I suggest. I’m at London …

Are All Reviews Fake?
Reviews are big business and fake ones are easily bought. Watch out, that fry pan may not be genuinely ‘amazing’.

The Cigar Shaped Object
A musing on the origins of Oumuamua As the sun grew brighter, and the days longer, I noted the temperament of those around me darken. My Father – a self-confessed recluse who watched the world through suspicious eyes – almost disappeared completely into his armchair. By sharp contrast, my Mother was chirpier than usual; baking …

Suing God, I Am Suing You
Dear God, I Am Suing You I am taking Legal and Moral action against you. I hereby lodge criminal proceedings against you, for the following list of crimes: Criminal Negligence causing bodily harm Fraud and Lying Conspiring to create a world of chaos There are others, but this will suffice for now. Criminal Negligence causing …

Turn That Frown Upside Down
Turn That Frown Upside Down The truth, the whole truth and nothing but the whole truth about happiness. All you need to do is turn that frown upside down. I’ve got a secret. My smile is fake. It’s not real. More often than not, it’s borrowed. I may even have bought it, or perhaps I …

Stay Afloat, Don’t Drown, Be Positive and Be Happy
Stay Afloat, Don’t Drown, Be Positive and Be Happy Laugh and the world laughs with you, weep and you weep alone – from Ella Wheeler’s poem from 1883 titled, “Solitude”. A lesson in how to be happy. Stay Afloat 2018 continues to drown us with technological advancements which we must learn, new methods that we …

Death’s Been Knocking on the Door
Death’s Been Knocking on the Door The family chatted loudly and with great passion and animation as the car idled on the sidewalk, forcing Sunday strollers to detour around it, while I – with all of the wisdom of a six year-old – saw the open door as an invitation and jumped onto the driver’s …

Humans are Alien Babies from Long, Long Ago
In Circle in the Sand – I’ve hypothesised that humans lived on Mars, before moving to Earth. I also hint that humans may have evolved even before Mars from somewhere else, perhaps even in another solar system. Did we come from Mars? Let’s look at the evidence for and against. Yes, we’re talking about either …

What happens to us when we Die?
What happens to us when we Die? I refuse to believe that there’s an empty void waiting for us at the end of our lives. What happens to us when we die? Remember when we were babies and we looked at our parents as though they were God-like beings who had all the answers? When …

An Amazon Drone is Gonna Start Dropping From the Sky!
An Amazon Drone is Gonna Start Dropping From the Sky! Or some fucking redneck’s gonna shoot ’em If I told you that an Amazon drone is about to deliver directly to your apartment in London within an hour of you clicking send, you’d think I was taking the proverbial piss. But it’s not something that …

The Alien Agenda is to Shove Hot Pokers up your Bum
The Alien Agenda Somewhere on Uranus, a group of egg-headed, mustard-coloured, yellow aliens with eyes remarkably similar to a Pokemon’s are scheming the demise of the human race. The biggest obstacle to the alien agenda is our Goddamn fighting spirit – oh, we’re a pesky race, reknowned through the galaxy for being stubborn, stoic and …

The Chances of Anything Coming from Mars
Travel to Mars: The Chances of Anything Coming from Mars Just Got Real Travel to Mars sounds like something ripped from a sci-fi novel. Which is funny, because it is. Specifically, mine. But these days, that fantasy is becoming suspiciously plausible. Rockets are launching, billionaires are posturing, and scientists are whispering the words Mars colonisation …

Night Terrors
Night Terrors Another victim scrambles for the light switch At some point during my teen years, I discovered that I would never sleep in a dark room due to continual night terrors that had plagued me since birth. My father bought me an orange night-light, which proceeded to fill my room with an eerie orange …

What to do if your phone is stolen
What to do if your phone is stolen Don’t panic, they don’t want your data I wish I’d read useful ‘what to do if your phone is stolen’ advice over two weeks ago. I’d left my friend after a great dinner in Kings Cross – London, in which I’d had two pints of beer and …

Aliens and the Afterlife
Aliens and the Afterlife Where did we come from? There are several species of aliens out there and some have even been in contact with certain people on Earth. Though those people aren’t necessarily those that you think. They might not be the white house representatives and you can bet your current wardrobe that even …

Where Do We Go When We Die?
Where Do We Go When We Die? The catholics believe that we go to heaven and the bad people go to hell and that’s what I was taught as a child by strict, Roman Catholic parents. I have a distinct memory of asking my Father, where do we go when we die? His response? Fuck …

How to Become Famous in 24 Hours and Lose Weight in the Process
How to Become Famous in 24 Hours and Lose Weight in the Process And other nonsensical suggestions for you The best advice anyone will give you about how to become famous is by considering what you’re going to become famous for, first. Then, systematically and methodically apply your talents – or lack of, towards achieving …

The Meaningful Ribbon
The Meaningful Ribbon We sail through our lives, often without a care. Things flow smoothly – sure, there are ups and downs, but they are just bumps and hurdles that we quickly overcome, but generally, we live our lives with ease. Until something comes along that requires you to get The Meaningful Ribbon. If you …

We All Get The Holiday Blues
Holiday Blues The minute you arrive at home – after a trip away, the holiday blues set in. I’ve just returned from a two week trip to Italy, where I caught up with family and friends in Rome, Caserta and Naples. I’m still smiling and laughing at the jokes that were told, licking my lips …

Why its Ok Being Weird and Other Terrible Advice
Why its Ok Being Weird and Other Terrible Advice Should I Conform to the Sheeple? I’m going to tell you a little secret. STOP BEING BORING and trying to be like everyone else. It’s not going to get you anywhere nor is it going to make you happy. The secret unreachable magic of life is …

Going Full Circle
Going Full Circle A popular theory amongst certain scientists is that time is not linear, it is cyclical. Try and get your head around this: the future has already happened and the past is yet to happen. If that is true, no wonder we might often feel like we are going full circle. Going full …

Chasing Butterflies
Chasing Butterflies Like a curious child full of hope and desire, I’m chasing butterflies. I’ve thought about it so much that I feel that I’ve spent my entire life obsessing over it. I’ve had it, used it, lived within it and gone past it many, many times and yet, here I am today still in …

What is a Digital Nomad
What is a Digital Nomad And how to find them… What is a digital nomad? It’s people like me who work online and digitally and quite often don’t have offices. That doesn’t mean we’re homeless – far from it – it means we’re officeless. Nor does it mean we’re jobless. Many of us earn a …

Why WE Should Be Ashamed of Ourselves
Why WE Should Be Ashamed of Ourselves Because we created a world filled with terror. We created ISIS. When the US led NATO went in and destabilized the Middle East, we left millions of people without homes. Now we’re arguing about who should take those refugees in…that’s why we should be ashamed of ourselves. We …

Think Like a Millennial or Risk Being in the Dark
Think Like a Millennial Because things are done faster, smarter…or not done at all. What is a Millennial generation anyway? Why is it so important for so many people to understand the importance to think like a Millennial? Let’s race through the last 70 something years and have a quick recap so that we’re on …

Hollywood Romance Books
Hollywood Romance Books I did it. I wrote and published my first Hollywood Romance Novel. Phew. Imagine if you were thrown into the spotlight at just 16. How would you cope? What would change in your world? How do you think your relationships with family and friends would adjust to such a different existence? Most …

Being Original When Being Genuine is Better
Being Original Can’t be original? Be genuine instead. Being original is almost…dare I say it, impossible. It’s all been done before. The art of originality has been lost, convoluted, diluted, shaken and stirred – then thrown out or simply forgotten. The more we try to be original, the more we discover it’s not only been …

Remaining Positive in Difficult Times
Remaining Positive in Difficult Times And avoiding the shitstorm that life often throws at us Lesson number 1, don’t talk politics with others, even friends and family. We all have an opinion and are entitled to it, even when you hear that opinion and your fists clench, your eyes water and even Superman couldn’t hold …

Reality is a Distortion Created by Hollywood
Reality is a Distortion Created by Hollywood But is that a good thing or a bad thing? Aliens with acid for blood managed to wipe out an entire ship, while Darth Vader went over to the dark side. The Illuminati became an internet conspiracy favorite for being the elites who secretly control the world and …

The Magician
The Magician Trump’s Sleight of Hand The world is in awe of the greatest magician history has ever seen. Donald Trump’s sleight of hand is unbeatable. He is, without question, the magician of the century with an audience of billions. Without question, 2017 thus far has proven that the orange man is by far the …

How to Broach a Difficult Subject and Risk Losing Someone
How to Broach a Difficult Subject Are You Being a Friend or a Foe? It’s incredibly difficult isn’t it? Telling someone something that they probably don’t want to hear. But if you don’t tell them, who will? There’s never a right way on how to broach a difficult subject with someone you care about. Whether …

Is Trump Going to Cause WW3?
Is Trump Going to Cause WW3? The answer is scary As I’ve been writing The Peace Ambassador, I researched top reasons why we’d experience an apocalypse. In my first apocalyptic book – Mr 303, I chose a virus, because it seemed the most likely cause. Had I known then that Donald Trump was going to …

Visit Your Home Town
Visit Your Home Town When Memories Are Better Than The Visit We grow as people; some of us more than others. When you leave a place and move on, you expect to return to some changes, though in your mind, those faces and those places should remain exactly the same. When you’ve been away for …

Reviews and How to Get FREE Stuff
Reviews The New Customer Service Satisfaction Proof and How to get Free Stuff Once upon a time, before the intenet, businesses received letters from satisfied customers letting them know that their product or service was great. There are still many places today who have letters on the wall in a physical business, for all to …

Humans in the Future
Humans in the Future The Exciting Prospects Have you ever thought of humans in the future and wondered what our great grandchildren will be like? Ever wondered if we will have colonised Mars and have bases on the Moon and possibly even gone further? What about whether or not there would be such advancements in …

The Quick Brown Fox Jumped Over the Lazy Dog
The Quick Brown Fox Jumped Over the Lazy Dog There are too many holes for this to be true The Quick Brown Fox Jumped Over the Lazy Dog. But was the dog lazy? Or is this just one point of view? Did the Fox jump? Or was he pushed? And the question I’ve been dying …

Age is Just a Number
Age Is Just A Number And numbers can be inconsequential I talked to a 20 year old recently about the idea of a world without money this week, because I’m compiling information for a new book i am writing. I’m curious about many things, especially whether Age is just a number. I’ll come to this …

Living Without Money
Living Without Money Can We Do It? I often fantasize about a world without money. This fantasy can get a little utopian… there’s a certain medieval feel to it and I imagine people doing things because we want to, not because we have to. I’m obviously delusional because, well… living without money isn’t possible. Or …

The Peace Ambassador
The Peace Ambassador A Story About Resolving Terrorism I had a dream…and throughout the night, I kept coming back to a story I created that was so real to me, that I woke up in a sweat – because it is actually 40 degrees celcius in Italy atm – and also because the dream was …

Getting Citizenship in Italy
Getting Citizenship in Italy If you’ve been following along, you will know through my Permesso di Soggiorno part 1 that I arrived in Italy on the 5th of January, 2016 and I’ve been through the cheese grater while trying to get clarification on processes, procedures and correct information all in the hopes of getting citizenship …

PokemonGo Hacked
Here’s a fun way to make lots of enemies around the world in one day, bring down PokemonGo – the new smartphone game that’s literally taken the world by storm. There could be far worse things than the PokemonGo hacked incident, but let’s be honest, when something that brings so much enjoyment to hundreds of …

Top Steps to a Better Website
Top Steps to a Better Website Trying to work out why you aren’t appearing in Google results? Here’s some quick and easy tips on how to enhance performance, which will ultimately help you get closer to page 1 of Google results. Whether you’re an author, blogger, retailer, services or any other type of website, these Top …

Imprisonment in Italy
Imprisonment in Italy My life of crime Guilty. I’m locked up and the key has been thrown far and yonder. I’m in imprisonment in Italy and all because I dared to reacquire my Italian Citizenship. God help me. The Italian government requires that should you have the audacity to try and reacquire your citizenship, you …

Is the Apocalypse Coming?
Is the Apocalypse Coming? Part 1 I wrote a book about the apocalypse and now I’m worried Perhaps you’ve read Mr 303 and came here looking for Part Two. Or maybe you’re looking for a glimpse of more apocalyptic shit or SHTF related stuff (Shit Hit The Fan). After writing a book about an impending doomsday, I began …

Why Are People So Angry
Why Are People So Angry? When I was young – which to me feels like approximately 400 years ago – I didn’t see signs warning you not to attack the bus driver because heavy penalties and possible charges would apply. It was a given that a bus driver could get on with his day safely. …

Permesso di Soggiorno Part Three Residenza Elettiva
Permesso di Soggiorno Part Three – Residenza Elettiva The insane chronicles – Residenza Elettiva Whoever told you that moving to Italy would be filled with lots wine and good food, sunsets overlooking historically magnificent statues, might have over-simplified things. Its a bit like saying that its a little bit smokey during a house fire. It’s …

Bleugh
Bleugh A coherent, insightful, intelligent, helpful, honest request to review from the heart I stepped in dog shit and said, “Bleugh.” Occasionally, I’ll eat something that is off or not tasty and will say, “Bleugh.” Maybe, very infrequently, I might have watched a movie, read a book, or listened to a new tune and said, …

It Feels Like the Apocalypse Today
It Feels Like the Apocalypse Today Nothing heralds the end of times more than waking up to no gas and no water. Yes, that’s right folks, if you’re in Florence – Italy today, nobody had water this morning and a lot of people – myself included – had no gas. It felt like the start …

A Medici Brilliance in English
A Medici Brilliance in English A cultural 1 hour rundown of 300 years of Medici rulings Fuck me. I got lucky and managed to get myself invited along to a Medici brilliance in English, right here in Florence. There’s my cultural input on an enjoyable evening in Florence. Since I moved to Florence, I’ve met …

A Successful Author Spotlight on Reddit
A Successful Author Spotlight on Reddit WOW! What a night that was and so much fun too. 2,000 upvotes and over 350 comments and I thought I was going to get ignored on my very first ever Author Spotlight on Reddit. When I first spoke to the mods over at /r/books on Reddit about doing …

Wrong House Mother Fucker
Wrong House Mother Fucker When I was living in Perth, Australia, this red-back spider made the stupid mistake of coming into my house. Because as humans we react with fear, I grabbed a can of bug spray and coated him in white. My partner asked me, “what’s that white cotton wool ball scurrying away?” Wrong …

Apocalypse Is Coming
Apocalypse Is Coming It’s not just preppers, conspiracy theorists and wild-eyed ‘the aliens are coming’ enthusiasts who think the Apocalypse Is Coming. There’s signs of those who think the world as it is today, is about to change. Don’t believe me? Type in Google “Apocalypse Is Coming” and see how many results you get. Over …

Ending with a Preposition
Ending with a Preposition Eat My Prepositions Bitch You’ve been lied to. Yes, ending with a preposition is perfectly acceptable and in fact, encouraged in fictional writing. Often, when writing a story, unless you do end with a preposition, it may not make much sense. This may not sound like such a big deal, and …

Living La Vida Italiano
Living La Vida Italiano This is a side post to my Permesso di Soggiorno which I’m currently acquiring in order to regain Italian citizenship. And boy, what a ride it is. From being sent to one office to another – and being told several conflicting stories after another – my journey isn’t one I’d recomment …

The Apocalypse Book Release
The Apocalypse Book Release It’s an exciting day for an author after many months of writing, re-writing, editing, re-editing, re-writing, re-editing, deleting, re-writing…ok you get the picture. Months of perfecting a story finally comes to an end. The book is ready for others to judge. Insert visual of said author biting fingernails. Does it suck? …

Trolls on Forums
Trolls on Forums It is so easy to tell someone that they are a piece of shit human being when you are hiding your own ugly, puss-filled face behind a keyboard. You’re completely anonymous – so therefore, it is your God given right to slam anyone that you want, anytime, anywhere, any way you fucking …

Getting Old and Looking Older
Getting Old and Looking Older Whether you’re 25 and starting to get concerned with some hairloss, or 45 and worrying about bags under your eyes…oh and let’s not forget about wrinkles, at some point, the majority of us will become concerned about Getting Old and Looking Older. As soon as I finished writing Toby, who …

How to Write Your First Book
How to Write Your First Book And get it to sell When you were a kid, you learned to walk, you fell out of tree houses – scraped your knee, maybe even broke a limb or two. You got up, continued to perfect this thing we call trying-to-grow up. Along the way, you accumulated some …